Rantings of a weekend warrior...

Alas, I have returned to the blogging world. Yay for me.

It's not as if anyone actually reads this but me, so why not say what I feel.

I love Rob.

Even as I write this, I wonder why. As I watch the clock and wonder if it'll be 7 days since the last time he and I spoke, or if I'll get to talk to him at all this week. As I write these words, tears are welling up behind my eyes. Because, it's true, I do love him. But I don't know if that's enough anymore. I don't know if I can wait for days and days on end with no word from him, no word from anyone. I'm just so tired of being alone. I deserve to have someone who'll hold me. Who'll love me. Who'll be there for me. Who I can call, and cry with, and who I know is going to answer. Someone who doesn't ignore me at every turn. I need the man he used to be. Not the man he is now.

I can't write anymore...