21 and Damned

So, I turned 21 the other day. And yesterday, I decided to back off of the relationship I have found myself in. I guess I did so out of guilt. Because, damnit, I love Rob so much. I couldn't even take it to break it off with him completely. We're on a break, meanwhile, I'm having a full fledged relationship with someone else. How wrong is that?

This is what I mean when I say I don't like the person I've become. This isn't like me. I know, in my heart of hearts, that if Rob ever gets his crap together I will end up with him. Hell, I'm sometimes tempted to try to put all of his crap together for him. And that isn't fair to him, either. But I love him, so much, and it hurts me to see him this way.